Fast Car, remade by John and Cat <3

The song Fast Car by Tracy Chapman was lived out this weekend..Slightly Modified:

You've got a fast car
I want peace inside my own mind
You told me that you'll strike a deal
And together we'll go somewhere
Any place is better
Scarred from the past,got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll find something,
Me, myself, I've got So much to prove.

You've got a fast car
You've got a plan to get us out of here
Been working hard at my Placement
Managed to save just a bit of mentality,
Won't have to drive too far,
Just cross from London into Reading
You and I can both get grins,
And finally see what it means to be living

See my old Mum's got a problem
Deals with depression, that's the way it is
She says she's to worn for living
Her mind went too young, how Sad it is.
When Daddy went off and left her-
He wanted something more that she couldn't give,
I said somebody's got to take care of her,
But I turned my back,yes, that is what I did.


You've got a fast car
Is it fast enough so we can fly away?
We need to make this decision
Leave tonight or live and die this way

Say remember when we were smiling, driving in your car
Speed so fast it felt like I was free
City lights lay out before us
And your warmth of your hand resting on my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You've got a a fast car
We go cruising entertain ourselves
You still got that awful Job
Now I work so hard to be a normal girl
I know things will get better
You'll find Smiles and I'll get better
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a little Cottage, the Door covered in Roses.

Say remember when we were smiling, driving in your car
Speed so fast it felt like I was free
City lights lay out before us
And your warmth of your hand resting on my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You've got a fast car
We get jobs that are ace it seems,
We live a life together,
This is what we saw in our dreams,
Never hoped for anything better,
My plans fulfiled, ain't going nowhere,
And we take your fast car and keep driving,

Say remember when we were smiling, driving in your car
Speed so fast it felt like I was free
City lights lay out before us
And your warmth of your hand resting on my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You've got a fast car
So fast you flew, we had much to gain.
Wasn't so hard to make a decision
Leave tonight and forget all the pain.
:P

Anyway, it was like that. John took me away for the weekend to Reading as a surprise. He knew that I was a little mental from the feedback of Placement and wanted to destress me. How sweet..I was actually gobsmacked he wanted to spend 72 hours with a pissed off me. True Love it must be..

Reading. What can I say about it..? It has a massive shopping centre called the Oracle. The chavs were mild compared to the London versions. They seem to hate cars judging on the fact they sucked so much out of us for Parking charges and the resturants were good. Found a cheap Pub that loved Students as it was cheap and Cheerful. Big cinema as well. ((Sad to say I still rate Kingston over Reading. Not that I am a loser in any way)).


Reading by Night:


The weekend was supposed to make all the Sadness suck out of me, but being as I cannot control what I feel, or even hiding my emotions in public, John seemed to morph into me by the end of it.
It was not all doom and Gloom though. Went to the cinema twice:
Escape 2 Africa

and

Transporter 3. (Brilliant Film).


Oh and got a free Ben and Jerry's bag for buying the ice cream. Which John smeared ice cream all over, being the Male Child he is :P. Will pose with it when I find my Camera/Phone..

If only if it was that easy..Damn RMH!

My my..Just imagine my face a few weeks ago. I was a bright eyed eagar beaver about to start on her placement. The Placement being none other then the World famous Royal Marsden Hospital. Yes, Ladies and Gentlemen..They let the crazy person into an Insitition where they are famous for being Professional. Great thinking that was, wasn't it..? Anyway, fast forward the last 10 weeks, and among the memories of Chemo and learning "The Marsden Way", you will find a girl close to tears. You see..I failed my first placement since beginning the Nursing Course in September 2006. What is the big deal..? Pssf, this was the same person admitting they were not the best example of Student brown nosing the Mentors for a pass rate... Well, as I had been naughty and gathered myself a bunch of fail Credits already, I couldn't fail the Marsden without the prize of being kicked off the Course..Hence the panic.. So what is there for me to do now..? Nothing. Sit tight and hope that the people in Kingston University have gotten used to my puppy eyed look that says "She feels bad already..Let us give her some hope. Even if it is to repeat the Year again.. Or worst- Find a new Uni to do so.
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Anyway, beside the fact I failed the placement, there are still nice things to be said: #1 The Sister Jo was the sweetest leader. Who was also left handed. #2 The amount of cake and Chocolate to be sampled #3 The Doctors respected the nurses. In fact they shared advice and asked for help on several occasions #4 The fact I live 10 minutes away, allowing me to wake up half an hour before I was due to be in work #5 They are having a secret Santa-Always was a sucker for the mystery gifts #6 The Patients were interesting people that had things to say..and said them regardless #7 Taking out a CVC line out right first time ^_^

*Sigh* At least I have a reason to be Emo now..I am waiting to hear whether I can continue with the Course or not. Sad times I feel. Hope the Weekend turns out better then a failed Placement book!
Oh and in case you are wondering why they failed me..?
"Catherine shows that she is the level of a promising Second year Student, not the year three level she should be displaying, Although improved vastly from the student she was upon starting the Course, Catherine still displays difficulty in the Acute side of Adult Nursing. Due to this, I (the Sister of the Ward) think she needs another year in Clinical skills to reach the level of a confident level three Student."
Sad times huh.?

A tale of Old Friends

It was a good fun night, the way that old friends are drawn together just like old times.
Yes it appers that those I knew and loved from Secondary School were still the Same, fun loving folk I remembered. Rosie, Kyle and Harry. The best a gal can get.

Met them at High Street Ken, stalked out a few clothes and gulped down a weird Meal that consisted far to much of Homus. Aww, good times.

As Usual we gossioped about how life was in St Thomas More. Kyle summarised best though:

"Isn't it weird how life seemed so normal at school, and you get out in the real world and are like, errr, School was fucked"

He was refering to the time that a guy went a little mental with a knife in Class, or the sexual nature everyone displayed far to early, or even the fact some people resorted to having sex in the Church..But, even without the delinquents it did feel weird stepping out of class and realising that you have a new role to fulfil...

If only the problems that are faced in our lives are just getting to class on time and completing homework to avoid dentention..
Anyway, we also stalked out Vanessa's Old house. Just because we were in the Area. And the fact that we wanted a mini adventure...We also (according to Kyle) Saw a celebrity and looked at his old School.
Sweet Childhood Memories...





Rolo didn't want to Pose..Damn her!

Stalking out Vanessa's old home

Posers, just like old times!
Close friends...

Walking in a Winterwonder land

I am not a fan of Winter Wonderland..Being forced to go last year with my mum when it was cold and full of tacky stalls to lure money away from the Stu id made me less then keen to go back.
John's puppy eyed expression and his badly hidden excitement for it swayed me to go back the Second time..

Impression of WW?..It was better to be expected. The entire German population seemed to have invaded Hyde Park, with Stalls selling everything from Toy Cars to Nuts..
The rides were impressive to like this massive wheel:
Didn't go on it though..We decided to pose with the various animals instead..John insisting on the Polar bear and Pirate (He forced me to take the Photo..beggar's belief!) and me choosing my Soul mate of Rudolf the rose reindeer (I was cold due to having no winter clothes at all!)








Um, money was spent on a lot of nuts and Mulled wine. Oh and a German shot of Jurua something Master. John got a free Car as well...He connected with one of the guys on the Stall selling Kid's toys and told him had a car that cow printed...
He ended up with this...
Cute I think..

Anyway, leaving Winter wonderland £40 lighter and equipped with a ridiculous amount of Nuts and a cow car we headed to Chelsea..
Saw a homeless guy on the way to the bus...I felt so bad for him I made John give his nuts to him..Aww well..At least Josh (that was his name) was happy..

Fun times

The Harrold's Parade

What can I say..?
Every year me and my Mum go to the Harrods' Parade to see the performance and get a lot of free sweets..Usually chocolate and Jelly beans..Hmm, tasty.
The only catch is that it starts so early in the Morning. At 8am to be precise..And since I had a hangover from Halloween and had placement at 12, I was not in the best mood to watch anything.

Did make it out of bed and into some clothes for mum's sake though..And took so many pictures..
Here are some of the highlights..
There was of course the Balloons and sweets given out to the eager hands of the parents and children..


And as usual, there were some people who lost their balloons as soon as they were given them. Sad times, although pretty sight in the Sky..


The Parade started with Acrobats and Clowns,

Diablo performers and Unicyclists.


There was people making Balloon animals and making massive Bubbles..

People in bear and "Jack in the Box" costumes




The actual parade started soon after, with a band coming out first-A big Brass band that shocked everyone to turn away from the above entertainment and look at the new Wonders..


And then came the Dancers. I felt sorry for them as they must have been freezing in the outfits they were..Little pieces of fabrics. Brr..


The fantasty Characters were soon to follow on..



The Horse and Carriages with Cinderella...


And finally Santa and his helpers: the Elves and the Reindeer..


All in all it was a well organised Parade with great delight for all..
That and good freebies..No doubt I will be ill with all the sweets I managed to gain. If I gain a stone or two in the next few weks you know why!

Last Picture with me and Mum:
Bless..

The start of Misery..

So I started Placement. I am now a third year student in the Royal Marsden. I feel beat already and Scared. I feel I should stop blogging as I am going into a sad mood now :( Hm, I have nothing much to say at the moment. That is what happpens when you decide to hide away in your bedrrom and stop returning calls. Cannot help but to think my life is like the Song Simple Plan, I'm just a kid:

I woke up it was 7 I waited till 11 Just to figure out that no one would call I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them What's another night all alone? When your spending everyday on your own And here it goes [Chorus:] I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Having more fun than me Tonight... And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed Staring at these 4 walls again I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time Everyone's got somewhere to go And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Having more fun than me What the fuck is wrong with me? Don't fit in with anybody How did this happen to me? Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep And every night is the worst night ever I'm just a kid [repeat x5] I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world. I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Having more fun than me tonight I'm all alone tonight Nobody cares tonight Cause I'm just a kid tonight

Oh dear. I drown in my tears.

Sad times appear in the horizon of even the ever dreaming Dreamer.
I have not been able to shake off the gloom that has cast over my life.
Hence..
1. The reappearing blackness of my wardrobe
2.The lack of constrictive blogging
3. The emo blog now.


Please forgive me in this storm of my mood, and pray for sunnier times appearing soon.